Just hang with me on this one.
I was driving home from my bridal shower a couple of weeks ago and I was listening through my wedding playlist. As each track played through, tears just streamed down my face as I pictured these songs being played and pictured my guests flipping through their programs as my bridesmaids walked down the aisle. I have every detail about this day sketched out. I have planned every detail. And I have loved each and every moment.
This one song came on as I drove eastward back to my Nashville home and it’s a song that I have always loved but that has become much more special to me over the last few months. The last verse is when my little tears in the corners of my eyes began to flow steadily down my face and I felt a huge dose of reality. I can plan each and every detail and I can be as prepared for this day as I want to be but it’s not about the wedding at all. And I am not the bride.
When we arrive at eternity’s shore
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more
We’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring
Your bride will come together and we’ll sing
I am not the bride. We are. We are the bride. And this wedding is not about us. It’s not about me and M. It’s all about this last verse of this song. And we are not getting married for us. We are not getting married because we are in love and we want to spend every sleeping and waking moment together. We are getting married because of the wedding celebration that we will take part in one day. We are getting married because we want as many people as we can reach to be there with us. We are doing this because we feel that God will be more Glorified by our marriage than by our singleness. That together, more people may come to know Jesus face to face than if we were serving Him alone. I am not the bride. And this wedding is not about us.
We are just a few days out from the day when M and I will be one. I am so excited for our day but even more excited for the life of service we’ll live together. I planned each and every detail of our wedding day but I can not map out each and every detail of our marriage and well, that’s the exciting part right? 🙂 Thank you to everyone that has been so encouraging and so supportive over the last few months, and really – years, that have led up to this day. We have been blown away and are so excited to see so many of you in a week! 🙂